It was one of those days. One piece of bad news dwarfed by the next piece of bad news. And then again. The universe seemed to be piling it on pretty thick, and I wasn't quite sure how to handle it.
I often think about this but never really acknowledge it. Very cliche statement of the day: I am very thankful for the person I have become and the person I am working very hard to become in the future (and great food and 3 football games today of course).
More specifically, I am thankful for two of my core underlying driving attributes: my undying curiosity to learn and my unrelenting competitive spirit.
With the combination of curiosity and competitiveness, I am driven to improve myself every single day — physically, mentally, and emotionally. If I come across something I find interesting and do not understand, I take the time to learn and understand it. If it is physical, I challenge myself to become stronger. And my competitive side forces me to want to make myself better. It’s a vicious cycle :)
As I said, I often wonder why I am driven by curiosity and competitiveness. I am sure my childhood, upbringing, and early experiences have a lot to do with this, but these are certainly not the driving attributes of my brother and sister. And then I wonder if these are things that can be taught. When I have children one day, I want to be able to pass these along.
I accept that I really don’t fully understand why I am the way I am (although the curiosity in me is dying to know), but I am certainly grateful for it and recognize and appreciate everyone who helped me grow and develop and figure out who I am.